Eyes Open

It's hard to pretend to be strong when a lot of people are looking up to you --with some who wait for you to break down and shed a tear -- and with some who get their glimmer of hope from your sturdy image...

At some point, you will accept people either way because no one can remain in between especially if it involves the things that you have already invested in.

To be honest, it's frightening to be caught up in this situation wherein you are the stronghold --- that you don't have any anchor but yourself. And the moment that you let go, it's not only you who's gonna be carried away by the strong waves but also a lot of people who matter.

You should admit. A lot of times, you wanted to quit.

You wanted to bring down the walls and let the barbarians take what you have for the fact that you sometimes ask if those things really mattered.

But then, reality will strike you. You don't do the things that you do because you love doing it or you gain something from it. You just do because it was destined to be your own cross. Like it was the universe's plan to make you experience the pain of climbing up your own calvary. 

2016 was a Year of Discovery

I never really knew myself aside from the fact that my Myers-Brigg Personality Type is ENTJ and that's it. "I'm Robin and I'm an extroverted introvert who wants to be in control of every situation he faces." Such a control freak, right?

But then, things happened last 2016. I had ran for the student council and luckily -- won. I had tried to find for "the one" but sadly -- failed. I had to balance my studies, CBASC duties, social life and with assumption -- succeeded.

All of these made me realized that I'm more than an extroverted introvert. I am not stone cold, I'm just firm. I am not shallow, I just enjoy the little things. I am not competitive, I'm just passionate.

All of these is what makes me who I am.

Thank you for the love and hate relationship, 2016. 

What silence taught me

These past few days, I wasn't active in posting my thoughts about the elections. Why? It's because I'm still not sure who to vote for that time.

But in doing this, I realized a lot of things. I learned that in silence, you get to discover new things that you haven't thought of before. Reading my friends' posts paved a way for me to accept different perspectives as to whom should we give our precious votes. I came into conclusion that the Filipino people, having different political views, is a sign of a healthy democracy.

Hence, I don't care if you're going to vote for Mar, or Miriam or Poe, or Duterte, or even Binay. What I care about is that you practice your inherent power given to you by the state.

With this, I pray not for my candidates to win, but for a clean and honest elections, where the votes of the Filipino people are respected and heard.